I never thought it woud happen to me. I thought I would start out slow and be able to handle myself. I was only doing it for recreational purposes at first; I would get a fix after having a particularly stressful day at work, or when I wanted to celebrate meeting one of my goals. After all, I know plenty of people who have tried it without getting hooked on it. I thought I could be one of those smooth operators.
Now that I look back on it, I wish I would have just said no, because along with prayer, Bible study, hugs from my son, bootie smacks from my husband and chocolate, life just ain’t the same without it. The sad thing about this whole tragedy of addiction is that I was warned!
Ronnie said when she started, she was determined to get higher than Lamar. E. Payne said that he cannot eat dinner without having a little of it on the side. Surely I would not fall for that kind of tomfoolery! Yet here I am, a freakin’ after school special…an example and a byword…a cautionary tale like Michael Vick.
I would love to tell you that I have the ability to stop, but with each new application of this drug, with each friend that accepts the fact that I’ve gone to the dark side, I have quickly fallen into the deep recesses of addiction.
This is a dangerous drug, y’all. I salute those of you that can use it without getting hooked immediately. I thought I could try it and be OK. Not so. All I can do is use my story as a sad song of regret. Your story doesn’t have to be like mine. If you have never used it before, for the sake of al that is holy, JUST SAY NO!! If you have, I’m sure I’ll see you around the blocks of addiction. I’ll pass you a nod and shoot you some deuces, knowing that even if you’re able to get away for a little while, you’ll be back.
Such is the life of a poor soul with a Facebook account. This is my story…it doesn’t have to be yours.
God bless!
~ Harriet